Monday Morning

Weekend marathon with those darn books are here again. My blog seems to be filled with entries about studies, revisions and whatnot. Oh yes, it's the EXAMS period again. Im taking a break from browsing through Buyer Behaviour. That fuckedup module has to last the paper. Am so dreading it.

Was so motivated to start on that module but after a few pages, my fucking god, i felt like vomiting. God knows how much I hated Consumer Behaviour back then in Poly. Chibai kan. Consumer Behaviour= Buyer Behaviour, and how difficult can it be when you had studied it throughout your entire 3 years in Poly? Consumer Behaviour was dry enough, now Buyer Behaviour beyond DRY. Its like the Sahara desert sak! Reading BB textbook was like reading 'Catcher in the Rye'. Haha. Like, I couldnt believe I read that entire novel.

I believe that module shouldn't be too complicated too comprehend but the lecturer just had to make those lectures boring hence I didn't attend. Not only was it boring, it was torturous to listed to her with that ridiculous accent. Macam nampak pat luar, kau nak pukol tu lecturer 'why the fuck did you make me life so fucking difficult?!?!'. Ahhh macam gitulah.

Basically, the whole textbook is coming out for exams. -_-

I have another 2 modules to cover. After which, aku confirm-confirm mati. Kubor dah menanti. The day after the next i'm starting work back @ DHL. Cant wait but scare as hell. I just want my exams to be over.

Am glad tonight I feel a tad motivated to blog (yay!) and also, to study (not buyer behaviour,of coz!) but other module. Can't afford to repeat the whole Buyer Behaviour module,boy. Now that, will cause another $5k. Amaciam, mau per?

Anyways, I really miss my bf. He's recovering. Gonna pay him a visit later today. Gonna have lunch at his place :)

Okay, its 5 mins to 1am. I'm gonna have a quick smoke and I swear I'll start on my revision.

It's 8 in the morning & I haven't had any sleep since yesterday. It was good, fun and cheery the night before. He sent me home and I had a call in the next 10mins. Couldn't be he got home that fast.

He had a bike accident on the expressway. My heart sunk hearing he sobbing on the other line. What came next was just a bunch of gibberish & it was so frustrating cause I couldn't understand him at all!

I should have followed my guts about taking the cab home instead of having him to send me. I knew he had to work in a few hours time. I knew he didn't get enough sleep the night before. I knew we spent the whole night out with friends. And I knew he must have been too tired to ride. But I just fucking shut up and allowed him to send me home. Now he's lying in the hospital with bruises, cuts and abrasions all over.

I remembered hyperventilating when i got his call & nearly burst out crying on the phone with the medics. Fucked up 995 wouldnt even pick up my call in the first place & when I got through the 2nd time, some stoned-sounding dude answered it.

The craziest thing I think I did today was rushing out of the hse at 4 in the morning, hailing a cab & asking the cabbie to stop at the motherfucking expressway. All I did was to fucking cry, in the ambulance, the waiting room during the phonecall with his mom. Tons of phonecalls today. From clueless paramedics to police officers to his family members. I shall down a couple of panadols and rest. His mom came in around 7 so I had to leave but I guess he will feel much better with mommy around.

His mom just called me. I guess I really need to get some sleep cause I think I'll be making another round to the hospital.

Last week was bittersweet. Hari raya visiting, Salwah's bday & my fucking fever. I caught e flu bug from the rest of them. Hating it at the moment with e persistent coughs. Did the craziest thing, went to my family clinic over at my old place and surprisingly the doc remembered me. And, I haven't been there for like, 10 years? Haha! Same old nurses, decos seats and picture frames that were hanging on the wall. Looked like I was transported back to the 90s I swear.

Then it was Salwah's birthday celebration. Even though the plan was pretty much screwed up here and there. I'm glab she liked it in the end. I'm so gonna head down to Howl @ the moon often. Very chillout pub with offordable booze and a Live band to boot.