Thursday, 24 December 2009
Season to be jolly!
Merry fucking Xmas all!
It's gonna be a heck of a loooong ass weekend! And a busy one for me. I can't believe I forgot that my aunt is coming down from States to get married here on Saturday! God does it means that I cannot party on Friday? Heh.
Everyone is so fucking psych about Xmas. Prolly coz of the parties? I'm psych too! It means I've got only officially 4 more working days till I start school again! School means more sleep and more time to "socialize" .BWAHAHA.
Oh a lighter & darker note. Someone called me yesterday. :( It was unexpected yes- for you to call me. But to hear your voice. Sigh. For you to tell me that things are not the same. Yes, it upsets me. But YOU wanted it.I would have given you a better life. Just for the record, money was never an issue for me. Time is. You of all people should've understand that school and work are my top priority. So are friends. Friends who are also YOUR friends.
But I'm not sore now. I've learnt to accept the fact. I lead my life the way I am supposed to. I've got nothing to lose. YOU, however lost it all. But if you're happy with HER. By all means. I'm happy for you then.
Alrightey, no love lost. Let's be merry. It's the season to be jolly! I gotta go have lunch and back to work. LOTSA CALLS TODAY, GODAMNIT!!
It's gonna be a heck of a loooong ass weekend! And a busy one for me. I can't believe I forgot that my aunt is coming down from States to get married here on Saturday! God does it means that I cannot party on Friday? Heh.
Everyone is so fucking psych about Xmas. Prolly coz of the parties? I'm psych too! It means I've got only officially 4 more working days till I start school again! School means more sleep and more time to "socialize" .BWAHAHA.
Oh a lighter & darker note. Someone called me yesterday. :( It was unexpected yes- for you to call me. But to hear your voice. Sigh. For you to tell me that things are not the same. Yes, it upsets me. But YOU wanted it.I would have given you a better life. Just for the record, money was never an issue for me. Time is. You of all people should've understand that school and work are my top priority. So are friends. Friends who are also YOUR friends.
But I'm not sore now. I've learnt to accept the fact. I lead my life the way I am supposed to. I've got nothing to lose. YOU, however lost it all. But if you're happy with HER. By all means. I'm happy for you then.
Alrightey, no love lost. Let's be merry. It's the season to be jolly! I gotta go have lunch and back to work. LOTSA CALLS TODAY, GODAMNIT!!
Wednesday, 23 December 2009
Evil evil evil!
Please don't be sick, Faezah! I've already make plans for the long weekend. Arrrgh.
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Anyways, life has been very tricky. I'm glad there is nothing and noone who can stop me from what I'm gonna or about to do. Breakups did me good. It made stronger, think better and realised there is more to life than sulking, be depressed and cry myself to sleep. Life has to fucking move on! He wont cry for me! He's busy with the new fucking gf. So what do you get in the end. FUCKING NOTHING. There isn't sucha thing called "time will come". Time will come only to make you realised what you've been missing NOT time will come for us to get back together.
LIFE STILL HAS TO MOVE ON. So lets just forget the world.
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Anyways, life has been very tricky. I'm glad there is nothing and noone who can stop me from what I'm gonna or about to do. Breakups did me good. It made stronger, think better and realised there is more to life than sulking, be depressed and cry myself to sleep. Life has to fucking move on! He wont cry for me! He's busy with the new fucking gf. So what do you get in the end. FUCKING NOTHING. There isn't sucha thing called "time will come". Time will come only to make you realised what you've been missing NOT time will come for us to get back together.
LIFE STILL HAS TO MOVE ON. So lets just forget the world.
Monday, 14 December 2009
Weekend Madness
We girls ditched Zoukout 09 for Supperclub and I fell in love instantly. Mentally, emotionally, physically.
If I could've replay it again in my head whatever happened, I would've replayed to the part where it was awesome- the part where you were there. Staring shameless.
Actually everything about Saturday was awesome. The fact that it was really an all girls night was just the cherry on top. Who needs boyfriends when you have awesome friends around. No offence couples. heh!
As for Sunday. God. I just love it. The fact that you're not out to impress me, i'm impressed. :)
If I could've replay it again in my head whatever happened, I would've replayed to the part where it was awesome- the part where you were there. Staring shameless.
Actually everything about Saturday was awesome. The fact that it was really an all girls night was just the cherry on top. Who needs boyfriends when you have awesome friends around. No offence couples. heh!
As for Sunday. God. I just love it. The fact that you're not out to impress me, i'm impressed. :)
Thursday, 10 December 2009
Let it go.
A friend once told me in order for me to move on, I have to lead a self-destructive life. I LOL-ed at her though. But I guess whatever she told me is what I seriously need to be doing right now.
I wanna tired myself out. I don't wanna care...I wanna feel so fucking numb!
I wanna tired myself out. I don't wanna care...I wanna feel so fucking numb!
Wednesday, 9 December 2009
I'm gonna start blogging again. So sick of putting up a front. Will update more after lunch. Till then.
Friday, 4 December 2009
The hottest love has the coldest end.
I was never one to patiently pick up broken fragments and glue them together again and tell myself that the mended whole was as good as new. What is broken is broken -- and I'd rather remember it as it was at its best than mend it and see the broken places as long as I lived.
-Margaret Mitchell
I'm sucha loser when it comes to a break up. I envy those who are so strong. Well, I don't ever wanna blame anyone for it. I'm not gonna blame the person who happened to be there for him when i wasn't. When I was busy with school...With work...With everything else but him.
Life is hard right now. But I have to get used to it. I have to move on. The world won't stop for me. Yes, people are stopping over to help me along the way but its really up to me to pick up the broken pieces.
People asked why do I feel so hurt and upset when in the 1st place, the r/ship has been stagnant, so plateau. Im hurt cause his actions are not justifiable.
Whatever it is. I hope you feel empty inside. But if not, then....
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