Monday Morning

I've gotta stop suppressing whatever I've been feeling. It's driving me insane. Gotta stop pretending that it doesn't hurt, putting up a goddamn front & moving on fine. Cause I am not fine. I'm not happy. I'm struggling & trying to deal with it on my own.

People can tell me to shut the fuck up, wake up & smell the fucking coffee. But this is me. I'll do what I goddamn wanna. I'll listen to the advice but it's my call at the end of the day. Every single day, every single time...it's heartbreak all over again. I wish I could rewind....and pause at our my favourite part.

I gave it all & I lost it all.

Goodnight.